oh man, i cant help not thinking about the 2 points to my marksman. so now i shall blog it out so that i wont keep it bottled up.

after some serious thinking, i finally found out why i didnt get it.
1. i had a short attention span. when i reached the further one, i forgot to do first and second pressure. so although i got all first 12 bullets in the box, the other 6 for the further one were not as accurate.
2. i didnt expect the target to move back, so when it did, i was rather taken aback. maybe that was why i became abit panicky.

that should be about it. i know it's all my fault, so i should stop whining about it. and buck up, if i wanna join shooting com in sec 4. according to ju, maybe i can go live shoot again, so even if i cant get the marksman, if my points can make it i still can go shooting com. i have finally kan4 kai1 that marksman is just another badge, and it doesnt matter if i dont get spf npcc, bcos it's a kind of an wei that the reason i didnt get is bcos i dont have marksman. if i got marksman and didnt get, wont i feel worse? moreover, the important thing is i enjoyed the process of shooting, how happy you feel when you see the bullet go into the box, how cool you feel you are when you're standing there and shooting. and the sense of achievement after seeing your score, no matter good or bad, bcos you know you've tried. the first experience from live shoot has given me so much to reflect on! i believe that it'll give me even more things, if i can buck up and manage to join shooting team in sec 4 (a very big IF).

although now i cant help feeling xin tong whenever i see jinqing or whenever someone mentions it. :( but i'm glad that i have that kind of thinking (abovementioned). shows that i've matured, although i need time to get over the loss of my marksman badge. but i'll jiayou and stop thinking about it. i believe i can put it past me and stop feeling xin tong whenever ppl mention shooting or marksman or shooting team..

anw now doing SIA stuff, but waiting for ppl to email me, so got time to blog.. feeling rather tensed now, cos IH proposal not sent to me yet, and geog assignment report not sent to email, so i cant edit. and tmr i have library CIP, and guzheng concert, so cant do homework tmr. got maths ws, bio ws, bio quiz, IH assignment, maths assignment and jap homework to hand in next week. how to finish?!?!?!

3/22/2007 07:26:00 PM
if only i could let u stay by my side...