Monday, February 27, 2006
i feel so guilty.. (not abt blogging in IT)
i felt super duper guilty last year too, abt e same thing. but after a long time, i managed to get rid of the guilt, tho not entirely. sometimes i'll suddenly think abt it, n feel so bad again, but it wasnt very often.
now im sitting here in e com lab, wanting to cry, n wanting to tell someone abt all dis, but jieqi's com had to go kee siao today, n now im sitting alone wif jieqi's com restarting itself again n again.
how can i do dis. i didnt noe how she felt. i didnt noe dat she'd b so hurt. i tot she had others. i tot she'd b okay.
y didnt i go n sit beside her in jap on e first day? i knew she had reserved dat seat for mi, i noe. but, but i didnt go dere.
now i noe how impt dat simple thing of sitting beside her dur jap is. if i had known, i wun hav done such an evil thing.
i didnt how much dat action meant to her. i didnt noe going for recesses n doing almost everything wif sqmts meant to her. i didnt.
now i noe. but it's abit too late. dis year is the last year we'd b in e same class, unless we're in e same class next year. i relly duno how to lake it up to her, i relly dont.
i didnt noe how lonely she was. i nvr knew. until today.
how m i going to make it up to her???
*dont think im trying to act sympathetic or wad, but dis is how i feel. i understand dat every1 has deir own point of view, but if u hav negative comments, pls keep dem to urself.
2/27/2006 10:26:00 AM
if only i could let u stay by my side...
