Wednesday, September 21, 2005
yes i noe we r kinda rebellious
lyk eating in class, sumtimes dun hand in hw, sumtimes dun do duty
but whenever we do sumthing wrong, lyk eat in class, ppl will say : y yall np ppl eat in class one?
dis is oreadi very frustrating
the worst thing is, if for example sum1 from av eat in class, nobody, n i relly mean NOBODY goes : y av ppl eat in class?
i dun understand y dey dislike us so much
lyk ytd dur pccg mrs wong found a can drink
n she asked whose it is
den sum1 sed np ppl
ya
i immediately sed : y muz it always b us?
den jess sed she din say anything
okay here i sincerely apologise to jess, cos i wasn't referring to u
i wanted to tell u i wasn't refering to u
but i was too angry, too pissed, too hurt, too *insert suitable adj here* to say anything
i hav nvr felt so unjustified in my whole 13 years 4 months n 9 days of life
as in, y muz it b always e bad things is our fault?
lyk other ppl oso dun do duty, but ppl oso dun say for example : co de dun do duty
n den later dur lang arts dey kept wanting 2 play e game in pairs
i cud c mrs tan veh ke lian oreadi
but she too hao xin to ju jue us
so end up she went out
den she sed if we wanna continue den continue
so meaning if u dun wanna play it's okay
so i went 2 e toilet wif yinhwee n jieqi
den we were pratising drills on e way back
den mrs wong saw us n asked wad happened
so we told her e ULTIMATE TRUTH
den when we went back she asked e class wad we supposed to do
e class sed mra tan told us 2 play game
den she asked y were sum ppl doing out side e class
n sum1 sed : dey went out demselves
lyk wtfh
going to toilet is a crime
oh police come arrest us
cos we went to e toilet
n we told mrs wong e TRUTH
yea
y r we condemned?
izzit cos we too close 2 each other?
y whenever sumthing bad happen den it's got to do wif us, e np ppl?
y dun i feel good when ppl call us e np ppl, lyk wad maam sed in Target?
cos e tone dey take is different
when dey call us NP PPL, dey wan 2 separate us from dem
not in awe of us
i relly dun noe how r we giong 2 survive another year wif dis class
i mean mayb not e whole class
but i relly relly dun think i can hang on for long
seriously
i think i mite juz die wif all dis
lyk we r aliens
n aliens r condemned
sumtimes i relly wish all sqmts can b in 1 class
n onli sqmts
so dat we dun hav 2 b condemned
i noe dat after dis post ppl will get angry or offended
but seriously dis is wad i feel
n b4 u get angry or anything, please reflect
i hope i dun sound too offensive
but relly look back, n reflect on how u hav treated us, how u hav jumped to conclusions abt us
mayb sumtimes it's relly our fault
but it doesn't mean dat everything bad thing is related to us
think
how wud u feel if u were in our shoes
when ppl jump 2 conclusions abt u
abt how u all treated us
relly
i hope i haven offended any1
cos i relly dun mean 2 offend any1
but i juz feel lyk blogging it all out
i relly dun noe y bad things hav been happening continuosly
but i guess i juz hav 2 face up to life
so ya..
dat's it, i guess
-an extremely depressed n hurt yunghian-
9/21/2005 10:33:00 AM
if only i could let u stay by my side...
