i going 2 cry cry cry oreadi!!!!!!!!!! i deleted e long long post i blogged ytd!!!!!!!!!! by accident!!!!!!!! *sobs*

but nvm, dat post wasn't veh impt anyway.. cos i duno y i seem to hav taken 2 blogging abt ppl i dun lyk or sth.. which makes the person i m toking abt sad.. n it's lyk i always type dose stuff in a fit of anger.. :x

but aniway now i dun care abt dat terrible post scolding ppl n toking abt my p6 terrible teamleader life.. okay, mayb it wasn't so terrible cos dere's shoe dey all wif mi, but e ______ n _______ r diappointing n frustrating.. okay, shan't think abt dat..

n i going 2 pon 3rd lang nxt wed.. suprised?? cos i wanna go back n c all e jap students n tchrs oso.. n tues we hav dis welcome party thing 4 e jap students which i m supposed 2 attend cos i m e host family.. starts at 6.. but got np, n i DUN wanna miss np.. so i duno how.. mayb ask 4 early release?? at 5pm cos takes 1hr 4 mi 2 get home.. but mum was lyk u wanna go in ur ny uniform izzit?? so she wan earlier.. n she abit lyk persuading mi 2 dun go np at all.. NO!!! i m going.. e most release earlier onli..

n 2day we going jieqi's house 2 make __________.. shud b quite fun ba.. i duno.. mayb will hav extra ingredient??

n i m torn between going 2 stephanie maam's hse after POP tmr or 2 go e briefing 4 host family.. i wanna spend mire tym wif 36 maams, but i need 2 settle sum stuff wif mrs adnand. lyk e tues thing n e wed thing n a lot of other stuff.. so now i duno wad 2 do.. go stephanie maam's hse awhile den come back?? cannot lar.. aiyah, i relly duno wad 2 do.. n is tmr oreadi..

n i carn seem 2 stay happi 4 long dese few days.. since tues.. alot of things i feeling guilty, sad n everything abt.. even when i got 12.5/15 for geog i oso carn stay happy 4 long.. *sigh* i feel lyk i can nvr b happi again, wif all dat sinking feeling of guiltiness in mi..

7/21/2005 09:30:00 AM
if only i could let u stay by my side...